TWINGE... right in the left side of my chest as I took a breath in. Reading the responses to a question I posted, "What would you like to learn about how the art was made?"
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I awaited the responses from my IG story question
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There it was. OUCH.
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An overwhelming amount of people said:
-"The stories behind the art"
-"The story of how the art was made"
-"The story about how you came up with it"
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A perfectly beautiful array of responses from my absolutely wonderful followers. Man oh man I love them!
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They want to know MORE... more about me, more about my life, more about my heart
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The TWINGE
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I'm a little afraid to share the stories behind the art. I am afraid of being vulnerable. I'm afraid of really sharing my thought process because sometimes it comes from places of loneliness, from a place of missing someone I really loved, from a place of chaos or confusion.
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When I look at my paintings or am crating them.
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Often times they're complicated...
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I begin from a stance where I typically feel overwhelmed
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Total transparency
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I get overwhelmed at the drop of a hat. I feel life can be WAY too much for me to handle a lot of the times. Overwhelm is something that actually brought me to painting.
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So, I stand there looking at my blank canvas. And I paint.
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I paint out the feelings of frustration
I paint out the feelings of confusion
I paint out the feelings of loneliness
I paint out the feelings of loss or hopelessness
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I begin to find feelings of wonder
I begin to find feelings of mystery
I begin to find feelings of hope
I begin to find feelings of love
I begin to find feelings of happiness
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I begin to feel all the feelings of life
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For what they are.
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Painting and the stories behind the pieces are always a mixture of all the things. The good, the bad, the ugly... the happy, the hopeful, the pretty.
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Life.
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Somehow someway. I'm going to work at sharing those pieces of the paintings. One by one. My hope is to convey the complicated in a way that YOU can relate to. Because as much as the complicated parts of my paintings kind of scare me and make me feel as though I couldn't possibly communicate the stories in way that would make sense to you.
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I also believe that the complicated chaos is exactly what speaks to you
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Because it's raw, its true, it's life
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And we're all humans living in this complicated life
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Trying to make sense of all the feelings
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Trying to find our way through all the overwhelm
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Together. We can.
Until next time,
-Paige