I'm going to let you in on my inspiration
A little behind the scenes if you will
"He is my Sunshine" was my dream.
HE was my dream in more ways than one.
I dreamt about him after I was grieving the last miscarriage that I had. I was so lost, distraught, confused, angry, disappointed, and definitely sad at the time.
One night I had a dream
I was sitting on a beach
Not just any beach like the stereotypical Florida post card scene
A backwoods type of beach with trees all behind me, a large rock sitting to the left of my elbow
It was overcast... not sunny but not rainy. Somewhere in the middle.
Two fishermen bucket hats began coming towards me
A man and the most handsome little boy
He was holding the boy's hand. Sporting navy swim Trunks and a farmer's tan
Was it him?
It couldn't be...
There was no way
But it was
My grandpa (Grumpy)
That ornery, loveable grin beneath the shadow of his fishing hat
He was with the baby I had lost, like a sign from heaven. That they were taking care of each other.
The little boy outran my grandpa... clumsy and excited in the sand. Stumbling into my arms giving me a chaotic toddler hug.
I melted. Right then and there. I was filled with peace and love and all the answers I had been searching for. The feelings soon melted away as if they were absorbed right into that beach I was sitting on.
He was my sunshine.
Just like the song says...
"The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I bowed my head and I cried
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know, dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"
He definitely is my sunshine.