I'm going to let you in on my inspiration
A little behind the scenes if you will
"He is my Sunshine" was my dream.
HE was my dream in more ways than one.
I dreamt about him after I was grieving the last miscarriage that I had. I was so lost, distraught, confused, angry, disappointed, and definitely sad at the time.
One night I had a dream
I was sitting on a beach
Not just any beach like the stereotypical Florida post card scene
A backwoods type of beach with trees all behind me, a large rock sitting to the left of my elbow
It was overcast... not sunny but not rainy. Somewhere in the middle.
Two fishermen bucket hats began coming towards me
A man and the most handsome little boy
He was holding the boy's hand. Sporting navy swim Trunks and a farmer's tan
Was it him?
It couldn't be...
There was no way
But it was
My grandpa (Grumpy)
That ornery, loveable grin beneath the shadow of his fishing hat
I knew.
He was with the baby I had lost, like a sign from heaven. That they were taking care of each other.
The little boy outran my grandpa... clumsy and excited in the sand. Stumbling into my arms giving me a chaotic toddler hug.
I melted. Right then and there. I was filled with peace and love and all the answers I had been searching for. The feelings soon melted away as if they were absorbed right into that beach I was sitting on.
He was my sunshine.
Just like the song says...
"The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I bowed my head and I cried
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know, dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"
He definitely is my sunshine.